I feel absolutely depressed about my Macroeconomics. I'm failing you see. It's so damn confusing!!!

My Family teacher said that I'm always confused. When she said that, I nearly broke down into tears (well, I did after a while) because the truth hit so close to home. I am confused all the time. I have a hard time making decisions. Maybe that's why I always appear apathetic.

As mentioned above, I did break down in front of my teacher. She asked me about my Macroeconomics test and I told her that it was hard. She told me that I have a negative feeling towards Macro that's why I'm holding back, and that crying was my calming routine. I can't believe I cried in front of her! She also told me that I come from a long line of people who have agonized over Macro so I shouldn't be worried. Then she advised me to go sleep and that we would continue my consultation another time. *sigh*

What's more embarassing is G saw my crying again. He was horsing around with his cousin and when I passed, they slowed down and looked at me. So embarassing! His cousin mentioned something about me, but I was too tired to care then.

Ppphht! When will all this drama end?

I would like to give a big, big hug to everyone who supported me in my epoch of crisis just a few days (or what is weeks?) ago. I have to tell you the news...

I GOT A 42/50 IN MY MACROECONOMICS MIDTERM!

Yey! That was a huge surprise to me. I never imagined I would actually get such a high score. The sleepless nights, the everyday drills, and Jordana's patience in teaching me the graphs really paid off. I would like to thank you, all of you, for believing in me. Grabe, ang sarap talaga ng feeling.

The bad bit is, I'm still failing overall by 4 points. However, my teacher said that if I try my darnest at the quizes, I'll surely pass the course, which was a huge relief to me. I thought I was really failing.

Anyhoo- that's the good bit!

PUCHA! TAMA BA NAMANG HINDI ILAGAY ANG YULE BALL SA GOBLET OF FIRE MOVIE? TANGINA, SOBRA NA YAN PARE!

"Then you are mistaken, and you know nothing about me, and nothing about the sort of love of which I am capable. Every atom of your flesh is as dear to me as my own: in pain and sickness it would still be dear. Your mind is my treasure, and if it were broken, it would be my treasure still: if you raved, my arms would confine you, and not a straight waistcoat-- your grasp, even in fury, would have a charm for me: if you flew at me as wildly as that [...] this morning, I should recieve you in an embrace, at least as fond as it would be restrictive. I should not shrink from you with disgust as I did with [...]: in your quiet moments you should have no watcher and no nurse but me; and I could hang over you with untiring tenderness, though you gave me no smile in return; and never weary of gazing into your eyes, though they no longer had any recognition for me..." [ Jane Eyre ]

What would you do if somebody says this to you?

I want the new Range Rover.

My interiors would be brown with pink piping. Make sure it's L-E-A-T-H-E-R.
The car color would be black.
I would have a dvd player and TV screens at the back of each head rest.
I would also have a car phone and computer in it.
I'd definitely have a monster sound system installed since I love blasting music.
I'd have a sun roof!
Dark tints are a must.

In other words...

My car must be high-tech and ultra cooool.