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June 1st, 2004

Hail, hail to thee!

Posted by kundiman at 11:31 PM on June 1, 2004.

Kakaiba talaga ang Theresian! A theresian myself, I am proud to say that Particia Evangelista won the ESU International Public Speaking Competition. I laud you Patricia! Angas talaga!

Down below is her award-winning speech, which has made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

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BLONDE AND BLUE EYES

When I was little, I wanted what many Filipino children all over the country wanted. I wanted to be blond, blue-eyed, and white.

I thought -- if I just wished hard enough and was good enough, I'd wake up on Christmas morning with snow outside my window and freckles across my nose!

More than four centuries under western domination does that to you. I have sixteen cousins. In a couple of years, there will just be five of us left in the Philippines, the rest will have gone abroad in search of "greener pastures." It's not just an anomaly; it's a trend; the Filipino diaspora. Today, about eight million Filipinos are scattered around the world. There are those who disapprove of Filipinos who choose to leave. I used to. Maybe this is a natural reaction of someone who was left behind, smiling for family pictures that get emptier with each succeeding year. Desertion, I called it. My country is a land that has perpetually fought for the freedom to be itself. Our heroes offered their lives in the struggle against the
Spanish, the Japanese, the Americans. To pack up and deny that identity is tantamount to spitting on that sacrifice.

Or is it? I don't think so, not anymore. True, there is no denying this
phenomenon, aided by the fact that what was once the other side of the world is now a twelve-hour plane ride away. But this is a borderless world, where no individual can claim to be purely from where he is now. My mother is of Chinese descent, my father is a quarter Spanish, and I call myself a pure Filipino-a hybrid of sorts resulting from a combination of cultures.

Each square mile anywhere in the world is made up of people of different ethnicities, with national identities and individual personalities. Because of this, each square mile is already a microcosm of the world. In as much as this blessed spot that is England is the world, so is my neighbourhood back home.

Seen this way, the Filipino Diaspora, or any sort of dispersal of
populations, is not as ominous as so many claim. It must be understood. I come from a Third World country, one that is still trying mightily to get back on its feet after many years of dictatorship. But we shall make it, given more time. Especially now, when we have thousands of eager young minds who graduate from college every year. They have skills. They need jobs. We cannot absorb them all.

A borderless world presents a bigger opportunity, yet one that is not so much abandonment but an extension of identity. Even as we take, we give back. We are the 40,000 skilled nurses who support
the UK's National Health Service. We are the quarter-of-a-million seafarers manning most of the world's commercial ships. We are your software engineers in Ireland, your construction workers in the Middle East, your doctors and caregivers in North America, and, your
musical artists in London's West End.

Nationalism isn't bound by time or place. People from other nations migrate to create new nations, yet still remain essentially who they are. British society is itself an example of a multi-cultural nation, a melting pot of races, religions, arts and cultures. We are, indeed, in a borderless world!

Leaving sometimes isn't a matter of choice. It's coming back that is. The Hobbits of the shire travelled all over Middle-Earth, but they chose to come home, richer in every sense of the word. We call people like these balikbayans or the 'returnees' -- those who followed their dream, yet choose to return and share their mature talents and good fortune.

In a few years, I may take advantage of whatever opportunities come my way. But I will come home. A borderless world doesn't preclude the idea of a home. I'm a Filipino, and I'll always be one. It isn't about just geography; it isn't about boundaries. It's about giving back to the country that shaped me.

And that's going to be more important to me than seeing snow outside my windows on a bright Christmas morning.

Mabuhay and Thank you.

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June 5th, 2004

Hey boys, hey girls...

Posted by kundiman at 08:47 PM on June 5, 2004.

Hey anybody who will listen to me. In case you haven't noticed, it's just me against the world today. (Halo Friendlies)

Caution: This post contains expletives.

I woke up. Mum said that they had a meeting at 9am and no one bothered to wake me up.

On the way out, mum said that I was going to take the MRT. It was raining. I was pissed. No one bothered to tell me and she got mad because she said I wasn't listening, then I got mad because I know she didn't say anything about me taking public transport. Then she gets mad coz she can't open the little drawer under the passenger seat. Grr.

Went up the station and the train was packed. Some passengers crowded the entrance and of course, it was hard to get into the middle of the car.

Upon reaching the Cubao station, the train halted. 20 minutes passed. No movement. It was very irritating to wait.

Cubao station. A herd of jackanapes who were smelly and wet entered. Pushed and gave me evil glares. I glared back. If looks could kill, they'd be dead by now. I wanted to lash out and say, "Tangina, if there was space to move pa, I'd move you fucker." I took the higher road and ignored them, mentally bitchslapping them. Fucker.

Freaky man was staring at me. I had to resist the urge to lash out and say, "Didn't your mother teach you it was rude to stare fucker?"

Got to Shang. The shoes I was wearing started to disintegrate. Had to buy shoes, in this case gladiator sandals, from Rustans. It was only P795, which I had to take out of my savings account. Fuck. Ang bigat sa loob.

Got irritated with Anne and Cleo, the handmaidens (coined by Wendy Skywalker) of The Golden Boy, for not doing their duties. Couldn't make them do their duties. Had to separate them, but always regrouped. Meann was very irritated.

This was a bad day. Fuck.

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June 7th, 2004

Interlude

Posted by kundiman at 09:32 PM on June 7, 2004 as a favorite post.

Let’s go.

We’ll watch?

Yeah. Let’s go.

We smiled. We laughed. We had a good time.

It was good. Just like a Patronus.

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June 9th, 2004

Soundtack

Posted by kundiman at 01:16 PM on June 9, 2004.

If I were to have a soundtrack to my life, I'd definitely include Miracle by Vertical Horizon.

Its taken much too long
to get it right
Would it be so wrong
to maybe find someone
A miracle

And all you really need
is everything you could never be
And so you'd give it all
for a miracle

Chorus:
Is there a trace
inside her face
of a lonely miracle?
And so you wait
and lie awake
for a lonely miracle

You never really know
what it is --
not until it goes
And if it comes again
it's a miracle

But what you miss is love
and everything below and up above
And could she bring it all --
a miracle?

All you wanted was a
All you needed was a miracle
A miracle
And all you wanted was a
All you needed was a miracle
A miracle

Its taken so long
to get it right
Could it be so wrong
to maybe find someone
A miracle

A miracle
A miracle

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June 10th, 2004

Phew!

Posted by kundiman at 07:09 PM on June 10, 2004.

NO MORE SWEET AND SOUR MEETBALLS FOR ME!

I HATE MAKING IT!

I suffered! I struggled! I CAN LIVE ON TAKE-OUT.

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June 17th, 2004

School's cool!

Posted by kundiman at 11:18 PM on June 17, 2004.

I think it is high time I update my blog.

I have been busy actually, in case you're wondering like RB. School started last Tuesday, the 15th of June and curse me if you want when I say that it felt good to be back. Although of course, there was a hint of nervousness since I'm starting my majors this year. Wow, I'm just starting college. Hah!

Each and every one of my subjects is so demanding with an abundant supply of readings that could cover an entire house, everyday quizzes, and very particular papers. I was really shaking when my APS Japan teacher said that she would give us a quiz everyday and take note, I have two APS subjects this term. At this point in time, I'm barely afloat.

I barely see my friends now. I'm a loner since I have a really effed up schedule (9am to 7:30pm everyday) and I also have very long breaks (6 hours pare). So what's a girl like me to do?

Study.

Eep! Joanna is really going to study.

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June 19th, 2004

Girls, be jealous!

Posted by kundiman at 09:29 PM on June 19, 2004.

I have enough bruises, teeth marks, saliva, and essence of CJ on me that I could sell myself to his fangirls and I get lots of money.

I need the money. Hehe!

So yes, I spent the afternoon with him and the other PHP people at Tower Club entertaining supa dupa rich kids. It was absolute fun even if I got really tired.

The funny thing was there was another set of Joanna and CJ there! And little Joanna was wearing khaki pants and a pink shirt, which I was supposed to wear! Edwin has a picture of us. Haha!

Well, I can't think straight. Next time!

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June 24th, 2004

It just sucks

Posted by kundiman at 09:05 PM on June 24, 2004.

I am going down with something, I just know it.

Unfortunately, my schedule isn't very kind. Sooner or later, I'll be in a mental institution.

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June 30th, 2004

He remembered, I smiled

Posted by kundiman at 10:35 PM on June 30, 2004.

I saw him doing something and I walked over and said hi.

He grinned at me and told me he was copying his accounting homework.

I told him that it was ok and that I had a lot of readings.

He said that he knew since I was in Poleco.

And then I smiled and said goodbye to him.

What makes me all giddy at that exchange was that I don't think I ever told him that my course was Political Economy or if I did, it was such a long time ago and he remembered. La lang.. kilig.

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