Found this from Sam's bloggie.

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: out, haughtily clutching my lollipop). To my teachers


2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
A bookshelf.


3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
MTV


4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.
9:50pm

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
9:51pm

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The TV in the dining room.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Oh last night. I just came from a dinner with my family.

8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
Sam's blog.

9. What are you wearing?
Blue shorts and a red shirt.

10. Did you dream last night?
I can't remember, but I know it was really weird.

11. When did you last laugh
Just a few moments ago, cherishing Fred and George.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Crap.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Hmm... nothing really.

14. Last movie you saw?
The Last Samurai.

15. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
Clothes no doubt.

16. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
What if I don't want you to know? I'm obsessed with Paulinho Moska.

17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Get America out of Iraq.

18. Do you like to dance?
Yes, and I look crazy when I do it.

19. George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase, or someone who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?
Power-crazy, egotistical, wannabe Jesus nutcase.

20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
I like the name Nausika. I found it in one fanfic. It's growing on me.

21. Same question for a boy?
Iñigo. Love this one.

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes. In Europe or New York.

Enrollment is such a nightmare!

I came to school around 7:15am today to enroll for my summer classes. Although, I do not have pre-requisite course subjects, I had to take some of my backsubjects lest I do not get accepted for my fourth year.

When I arrived, there was a big, fat line outside school. I wasn't even sure where the start of the line really was. I just stuck with Chi who was there quite early. Once the gates were opened, people were rushing to get in and the line suddenly disappeared leaving behind a mob pushing their sweaty bodies through the small entrance. What a nightmare.

Apparently, I'm not really enlisted for summer since I received a warning about my grades the first sem. So I have to go back tomorrow and find out what my average is and re-arrange my sked again since my mum wants me to take my calculus in the school year. I am prepping myself for another wave of frustration tomorrow.

In other news...

It has been pretty lazy for me. I'm re-reading the Order of the Phoenix and doing some pieces for the exhibit.

I got into some serious thinking last night. I actually entertained the thought of transferring to another school. I was wondering to myself if I could handle third year, given my grades of last sem. It's something to think about.

The greatest pain that comes from love, is loving someone you can never have.

It is such a tedious business to try to forget someone who makes your day brighter, who makes you smile with the simplest things, who makes you look forward to classes, and even makes you quit doing the bad things you do.

But you know it's not meant to be. It's a silly, hopeless crush.

As I write this, I realize why the tears glazing my eyes, is making this piece hard to write.

Last year, I never thought I'd know someone who was everything I wanted in someone. I allowed myself to feel things about him. It stirred things in me that I felt so long ago. It was so great that I had most of my classes with him, that I made friends with his friends, that he saw me with tears streaming down my face and it was just fine. It was so simple then, so very simple. But you see, there's Time. And time can be the cruelest of elements. It has been so long that I got so caught up, so tangled up with everything that involved him, that I made myself vulnerable to his charms. Charms he never intended to make me feel things as more than a friend.

It's hard to let someone get in so deep, that he's in your veins, in your head, and in your heart that it makes it so hard to expel everything he's stirred in you.

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
~Try - Nelly Furtado

I wish I never met him. I wish I never knew him. But it's my fault you see. I sunk myself in his ocean and I'm barely afloat.

It's a crush I put into hyperdrive. And I want it to end.

Things just got a little more complicated as I found out today. While I am on this little quest of mine trying to forget him, I discover that he is to be my classmate in Calculus. From the looks of it, he failed.

It's going to be a real test of will and strength this time unlike the previous ones which had the opportunity of time and distance. I rarely saw them, which was good for me.

A few nights ago, A and I started talking after a really long time of not talking to him because of my 18th birthday incident. He asked for my forgiveness and I gave it. But there was something that was telling me not to... like I wanted him to earn it. It's so pathetic you see. Anna said that maybe I should have looked at the situation differently and be thankful that he came. But she doesn't know what I felt then. You know, that never crossed my mind. maybe I was so wrapped up in my anger and disappointment that I didn't think about that.

But I had a crush on him then...

And now, old feelings are starting to resurface. I can't afford to think of guys right now. No time for crushing and noticing their mannerisms, or the way their hair falls over the forehead. I cannot, should not langish in infatuation. I need my mind to function for school.

Why does it seem that everything is against me? Or perhaps I am so delusional to think that everything is against me when in fact it is not! Am I just making a big deal out of this? It's so awful when I think about it.

G. is always in my mind. When I sometimes think that I'm thinking something totally different, he's there lurking. I see his white face or hear his voice. It's awful!

These are some of the reasons why girls waste away. Always thinking about someone, when you can do something else.

I have a feeling I'll fail calculus.

Pucha, hindi pa nga talaga kami calculus, review pa lang ng functions tas bumabagsak na ako ng quizzes. Eeeep!

Kahit 3 lang Lord please lang. Kahit 3 lang grade ko sobrang matutuwa ako. Pleaseeeeeeeeeeee?! Oh pretty please?!

From Mara's blog...

10 bands you've been listening to a lot lately (in no particular order. dapat ba band?):
1. Jet
2. Soul Asylum
3. Forty Foot Echo
4. Musiq Souchild
5. Josh Kelley
6. Dishwalla
7. Vertical Horizon
8. Yasmeen
9. Jack Johnson
10. Tamia

09 things you look forward to:
1. POA Event
2. The weekend even if I have to study
3. UNO every saturday at NBS Q. Ave.
4. Calculus *smirk*
5. The beach
6. Finishing The Last Samurai book. It's pretty difficult!
7. The end of summer classes
8. TAMI RETURNING MY CALCULATOR! I REALLY NEED IT, BWISET NAMAN EH.
9. Sleep every afternoon

08 things you like to wear:
1. white stretch shirts as well as my blue one
2. flip flops
3. jeans
4. my own jewelry
5. lip balm/gloss
6. silver bohemian earrings
7. my watch!
8. my hippie blouses

07 things that annoy you:
1. indifference
2. my sister
3. heat
4. ballpens that don't write
5. dirty/messy whatever
6. chapped lips (especially guys)
7. my dry feet

06 things you say most days:
1. same old, same old
2. no kid?!
3. yeah
4. ah?
5. shit
6. crap

05 things you do everyday:
1. listen to my mp3s
2. go to school
3. study
4. visit SIYE
5. go to blogs

04 people you want to spend more time with:
1. the PHP people
2. my high school friends
3. the ok crowd of YFC
4. Kay

03 movies you could watch over and over again:
1. Peter Pan
2. Wedding Planner
3. Sound of Music

02 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. Are You Gonna Be My Girl by Jet
2. Miracle by Vertical Horizon

01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. Someone. I don't wanna die alone.

Look, doesn't this wanna make you smile?

Got this from Skywalker's blog... =)



Bwahahahahahaha!

A random note...

G showed up for the first time. I was trying to act non-chalant about it. Hopefully, it goes well for the rest of the summer since he's my classmate in Calculus, which I have everyday. *sigh*

I just had this blood-boiling arguement with my mother where she happily shouted to the entire house how we were all DEAF with her as an exception. How wonderful. Thanks mother. You're sooo loving.

All this time, whenever she starts blasting things with her colorful language, I just say to myself over and over again that this is caused by menopause. I have an unexplainable large amount of toleration and patience, which I exercise often especially when petty irritating things happen. But there is a limit to that toleration and patience. I will not stand for it when I am accused of something I didn't do.

For god's sake, I stay away from the fights and avoid confrontations! I would rather talk things over in a calm manner rather than hurl insults at each other.

I am 19 years old and not a child. I deserve some credit to be talked to as an adult.

We're all too different and I can't wait until I get out of this house and move somewhere.