Did I mention that Gwapito/Gabs is running for Finance Officer? Well he is.

I remember doing his biodata with Tiffany and Kay at the Ledge, inventing stuff on his interests (I like helping people etc.) and his skills (Helping people etc.), and talking about a certain sshhh!

Today was the Miting de Avance and before that, he was dressing up in the middle of the caf! Damn he looked so adorable trying to make his pants stay in place because he forgot to bring formal clothes today. He was wearing a purple polo, super big pants with a super big belt, and Nike sneakers. Ahaha! How adorable!

I'm gonna invite him to our P.E. fiesta.

Waaaahooooo!!

I showed my former art professor my portfolio and she was to say the least, impressed!

She told me to do 30 pieces and once I've done that, she'll call up some gallery owners so that I can exhibit.

So nice. *sigh*

It is most gratifying to know that there are some people out there who are just completely out of their wits, or lack thereof.

As I was on my way home, I remembered that I forgot to make a copy of the play (subTEXT) in prom B, the xerox area. So I texted N that I forgot my copy and asked her if I can call her later since I'm gonna need her input for the introduction. She replies that she doesn't understand what I'm saying. So I patiently replied to her and said that I forgot to make a copy of subTEXT. Then she says again that she doesn't understand.

What part of fucking I-don't-have-a-copy-of-the-play don't you understand?! I told her I forgot and maybe I could call her up so that she can tell me the story.

But noooooooo!

She makes it more difficult for us because she won't be home until 10:30, which is her set deadline. All I'm asking for is 5 minutes of her time to explain to me a few details while I expound on it.

Sobrang banas na banas ako na kulang na lang na lagyan ko ng expetives yung tinext ko sa kanya! Ang tangaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! Ang simple simple na nga and she fucks it up. Ano ba? Paano ka pumasa ng IMC? Dude, if she plans to do extremely well in her desired course, I suggest she takes some English classes to improve her comprehension skills.

Fucker.

I edited my Friendster profile. Watcha think?

I always have a hard time describing myself, but I'll try my best! I love to listen to music, to any kind, but I always go home to alternative- my number one love. =) I love to do a lot of creative things. I'm more of an innovator than a creator. I try to live a worry-free life, which accounts to several statements of me being a bohemian. I like taking pictures even if I know they will never get published. I take comfort in reading books, especially the classics like Jane Austen. I simply love the love-hate relationship of Mr. Darcy & Elizabeth! Speaking of books, I'm a slave for Harry Potter (that sounds nasty!). I am a fanatic. Oh joy! I love watching romantic comedies and I find The Wedding Planner cute even if there are people out there who diss it. I have an active imagination, often missing out on conversations, which my mom finds irritating. I have this huge dream of traveling the WHOLE world, north to south, east to west. I like writing even if it's crap. I love going to the beach although I have this phobia that a gigantic jellyfish will attach itself to my leg and suck the life out of me. I like to sing like there's no one listening. I love to sleep since I hardly get any. I like the smell of coffee and boys who smell really good. I find bossa nova eternally cool. I admire Sabrina Ward Harrison and find Audrey Tautou adorable. I'm also very arguementative and opinionated. Ask my high school friends about my tirade galore in STC. I like to crush on people since it gives me a reason to go to school or else the world would be a dull place. Well, I suppose that's some of it. 18 years of living is hardly enough for this space. =)

Oh, I told off the ticket boy at the MRT station. He was so cheeky. The bastard.

And I, I think I'll change my ways
So all your words get noticed
Tomorrow's a brand new day
Tomorrow's a new day

I can't stop listening to this song. It's so dramatic, so sad, so real. Whenever I listen to this song, the music seeps into my veins and I automatically close my eyes letting the song take over me. When I play the song in the car, I stare out the window and a swirling sea of stories are formed in my head. I can't explain it. It's become something I need to hear everyday.

I guess I'm too idealistic. My friends often say so especially when we talk about love.

I need a change. I'm so tired and drained, but I manage to push on. If it weren't for this account, I would die to being trapped in my own world. I have this urge to share to the world what's going on with me even if it's pathetic to some (no complaints there). I feel like a paradox that there's no way people will ever understand me. Most often, I seem to know others better than I do myself. It's weird yet comforting at the same time.

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

I can't stand him! Why is it that he has to have a new haircut? Why is it that he looks so kissable when he just wakes up? Why is it that he's so damn adorable?! I hate it when he winks at me.

I get so frustrated with myself liking him when I know he'll never think of me as more than a friend. He's so playful whenever we text each other, but reserved when we meet. And I get frustrated at that! Who wouldn't! It's as if there's this parallel world we live in where it's just us, playfully us. But then reality strikes back and we're back to being aloof. It's not consistent and it's driving me mad! Cherie would probably say, "Eh iniwan nyo nga yung mundo di ba?" I'd probably say, "May space shuttle kasi eh, bumabalik kami sa totoong mundo."

When you know for a fact that things are supposed to be the way they are. But deep in your heart you wish, just wish that there's this tiny spark that he'll feel what I feel. That there's some chance we could be together. It sounds so cheesy, but I can't help it especially if his friends are helping me!! And I love them more for that.

I can't help it that he's such a gentleman and he's not bothered that I smoke. Tami blew my cover kanina when she asked for yosi. God, maybe I'm turning into a Ginny Weasley. I don't know if I'll be able to handle that.

I have this feeling that I should live up to his standards but I know that I would be lying to myself if I did that. The grand dream that he'll like me as me, with the bad habits and all, will drift away like a mist and I'll face reality as it is, harsh and dreary. That there is no us.

I got myself really creeped out as I read Chesca's forwarded e-mail about this guy who died of cancer who talked about vices and stuff.

I got scared.

It got me thinking of what I did last night and even the past few weeks. I smoke, I drink, I cuss and I feel really bad about it.

I got scared of dying.

Nobody wants to die young. I lay down last night and I thought about how many people in our family has died because of cancer. I don't want to die of cancer. I don't want to die. I don't want to ruin my life. I want to live a long and healthy life. Now I understand how brave principled people are because no matter what, they stick with what they believe in. It's truly admirable.

I got scared that I might never fulfill my dreams and that blew me the most. There are so many things I want to do.

I think I'm just getting really paranoid.

Aaaaaaaaack!

My brain is going to explode with all of these information! I need a pensieve like Dumbledore's. I can't believe I'm going to have a full load tomorrow in succession!

Art test at 9
Politics & Governance finals at 10:30
Filipino subTEXT play at 12
APS presentation at 4:30

Does anybody have a shotgun?

Can you believe that Havianas cost 700 bucks and they look like Islander slippers?

I can't waaaaaaaaait for summer!

Can somebody please wipe off the mile-long smile I have plastered on my face?

I just saw the new Harry Potter trailer and boy does it look sooooo good. I love the Knight Bus scene where Harry slams into the window. How cute! Makes me want to rub his face. Ahihihi! And the dementor on the Hogwarts Express where Lupin was explaining to them the situation... makes me want to hug Harry and smooth his hair down. Ahihihihi!

I want to feed him the chocolate!

Dan is oh so so HOT! He's so damn good looking and he's only 15! Shit, I'm 4 years older than him.

Sheeeet! Baket ba ang gwapo niya? PUTEK.

Well, I have been very unproductive today. I had my civ exam earlier where I forgot my test permit so I had to rush and buy another one. This delay caused me to miss 30 minutes of my exam... Then I bummed around until Mau and Badge fetched me all of a sudden.

So here I am, 2:10 in the morning eating dinner.

I really enjoy spending time with Badge's friend Joel. He's really really nice and a good conversationalist, which you don't find that often. He is our new best friend. =D Heeheehee! I frankly don't mind going home at 2 in the morning when he's around coz he's fun. =)