I've been bad. I have neglected this baby far too long.

January 9, my friends from PHP and I watched the long-awaited Return of the King at G4. It's one of my favorite moments in history because we literally caused a riot inside the cinema. Lots of hooting and cheering especially for Legolas (the elf is drool worthy! ), Harry Potter crossover comments, and Fil's slash comments... it was truly one of the funnest times in my life! Grabe, I miss those witches na!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was a little disappointed since the love story of Faramir and Eowyn was not shown and they're one of my favorite ships in the world.. After H/G of course!

I think I shall call him as my Rocket Man... tutal naman, sabi niya, "Tara, iwan natin ang mundo." Pakshet, kinikilig pa rin ako everytime I recall that day he said that to me... I was so disappointed because he didn't come to class because he had to study for Calculus... *sniff sniff*

I had the most interesting conversation with Armi today. We were talking about the art scenes of our lives. I dare not call myself an "artist" since I feel that it comes with certain things that I'm not prepared for yet. But living the Humanities life, it is something. It's what I want but am scared living the down side of it... Badabing, badaboom, bam! No more money and living the struggling artist life. I suppose it's what I'm destined for... Who knows? I just want to enjoy my life. There are so many things that I want to accomplish- travel the world, read all the classics, try every kind of food, have a collection of something... I live an eclectic life.

Anyway... I'm addicted to Josh Groban's My Confession. It's so lovely and really romantic.

Holy friggin shiznit! I think a couple of Legolas' arrows strayed from their path and shot directly to my heart!

I SPENT THE WHOLE DAY WITH HIM!

And the nice part about it was that we were laughing, joking, taking pictures, and just talking about music!!!!!! OH MY GOD, I'm in utopia!

Since our friendship is still in its infancy, there were some weird moments of silence, but that's because we hardly talk... I feel like Ginny in Serendipity's A Muted Sort of Longing, feeling the same things she felt, thinking about nearly the same thoughts.. It was surreal!

Not to mention, he offered to bring me to Shangri-La since they were going to buy some fruits for Tiff's lola. Anddddddd- I got to ride in the front seat.

I hate it that he's so nice, that he's such a gentleman, that he's so thoughtful that I feel so overwhelmed with shyness! An evidence would be the picture we have and me... with a red face!

I think my week is sooo good despite the requirements. Plus, we're watching a movie tomorrow.

Now that's another story!

What is creativity for you? From one word to a paragraph, how would you describe it?
Something that makes us feel good and liberating.


I wrote that for CreativeDay a year or two ago and I remember feeling like I can do anything even if I wanted to fly to the moon.

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A high school friend's dad died last friday. Cathy and I went the night before last to the wake. Going inside the chapel, I was so nervous that I didn't know how to act around her. We were never close. At one point I even despised her. But when I look back on my high school days, I feel so much pity for her. I realize that I'm quicker in feeling pity towards someone rather than anger or hate. I think that's a good thing though.

I do not like seeing the dead at wakes. I purposely avoid it because I get scared. Ever since my lola died, which was more than a decade ago, I have never approached the coffin. It terrifies me that this is death, seeing a pale, made-up person inside a box. You soon realize that this is final, that he reached the end of his road. And last night, I had this clenching feeling in my stomach.. I felt very uncomfortable.

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I look forward to watching Peter Pan!!! Ever since I read the book, I've been hooked! I would just love to meet a mum like Mrs. Darling.

"I remember kisses. Let me see...Aye, that is a kiss. A powerful thing." -Slightly

"To die, will be an awefully big adventure." -Peter (sounds like Dumbledore!)

"To live, will be an awefully big adventure." -Peter

"You won't forget me Peter?" -Wendy
"Me? Forget? Never." -Peter

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I do not recommend Kill Bill.

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Grabe.

My body is screaming in agony. It says that it wants a nice, long bath, a massage, a manicure, and sleep. However body, you see, I'm slaving my ass off in filling my IMC application form. So stop it and you'll soon get what you need.

Anywayyyyyyyyy...

The con was a success! WE WON BEST BOOTH! Chona called me up in my cell and practically screamed her head off! I can't believe it, WE WON! Kiss my ass LOSERS!!! Mwahahahahaha!!!! Keeeeding!

Yesterday, Ryan Agoncillo graced us with his presence wearing a Harry Potter costume. I was shocked when I saw him because he looked exactly like Dan. Un-believeable! He stayed the whole afternoon even posing for the endless call of photographs. Hahahaha! Nakaka-starstruck. But he really was very nice... also very makulit. I was able to strike up a conversation with him at bentang-benta sa kanya yung ocho-ocho joke. Hahahaha!!

I have so many memories of the con, it's hard for me to organize my thoughts because each and every single moment is pressing me to get written. Like the cute little kid who didn't want to leave, CJ- anak ng PHP, Mara's -isms, the spoof class, the 2 assholes kanina, the PHP shouts, the sweltering heat, Fil's fever, the crossovers, the sorting ceremony, the overwhelming number of new members, my quill given by chona, Frances/Paolo (she's gonna kill me....), and just everybody who went there. Super fun. I can't wait for the next one.

Head on my gallery and click New Worlds. Konti pa lang, but there are over 50 images to upload pa. Haahahahaha!

...and which lesser Harry Potter character are you?

Congrats! You're Gryffindor fourth-year Dean Thomas!

At first glance, there might not be too much to set you apart from the rest. On closer examination, however, it's easy to see that you're laidback, artistic, and as loyal as any Hufflepuff. Best of all, your biggest argument in three years has been about why the people in your posters don't move .

(Your moment of glory - so far, at least - comes any time Gryffindor House needs some notable decorations.)

Hehehe! Another one I got from Hayhay:

1. Who is your crush?
Kesong Puti

2. Is he/she on your friendster network?
Yep!

3. Describe your crush…
White! Sporty, has a cute smile, boyish, mysterious

4. What is the no. 1 reason why you like your crush?
Because he's so mysterious and whenever he smiles, it reaches all the way up to his eyes.

5. What’s one thing about your crush that separates him/her from the others?
He's super nice and a real gentleman.

6. Does your crush know you like him/her?
Nope. I don't know what I'd do if he ever found out.

7. Does your crush like you?
I hope so!

8. What’s your greatest wish that’s related with your crush?
We'd become really, really good friends.

9. Do you have aliases/nicknames/codenames for your crush?
Look at #1.

10. What would you like to say to your crush right now?
Hi! Kelan tayo lalabas ulit? Hee!

I came home drunk last night from Mau's party. It was also the first time I retched my guts out... in the car, unfortunately.

So I found out from my mom that mixing cocktails and beer was bad, after she laughed her ass off seeing me drunk and saying things like, "Oh, my baby is drunk! Wahahahahahaha!" Thanks Ma!

But it was fun though! Was a bit early (is 10pm early?) and went home at 12:30. I met Tami's cuz Jackie, Kas, Adam's girl Erica. Saw Cookie, Kookie, Badge, JC taba, Adam, Chai, the EM boys, Jason, VG, Krys, etc.

Sayang, I didn't stay that long Badge and VG were offering to bring me home pa naman. But then again, I wasn't proud going home drunk. I seriously didn't like the feeling. I didn't like hanging out in the bathroom waiting. Eck! Although I have a feeling I'd do it again. I'd just have to make sure I bring with me a plastic bag. Hahaha!!

This song is good shit.

I found out I didn't make IMC. I felt so bad that my 2 friends passed and I didn't; when I was the one who did all the work while they talked about clubbing and their pathetic boys. I thought I'd make it as well as everybody else. Man, I felt so bad. I felt like I disappointed myself and those who expected me to make it... Shara, Ning, Trina, Armi. I thought I had it knowing what I am capable of, knowing what I could contribute, knowing what could have been. But I didn't.

I felt sad when Shara said she expected to work side-by-side with me. She said she looked forward to brainstorming with me. She said she wanted to work with me. But it seems like there's never going to be that chance.

I was crying my eyes out when I wrote Mars her retreat letter. The letter was supposed to be full of encouraging things for her, but instead, I poured my heart out to her. How terrible! God knows how pathetic that letter sounds.

I still resent it a bit. I didn't know how to tell my mother about it. I thought she would be disappointed, angry even. But as I told her earlier, all she did was hug me and told me that everything was going to be fine and we always prayed for a course that will make me happy. She said the Lord wants me to take another path and that I should trust him. All I can do now is leave everything up to him and pray hard.

Please pray for me. I am applying for Humanities and Political Economy.

You have just won one million dollars:

1. Who do you call first?
I'd probably call Anna. We'd scream our heads off I suppose.

2. What is the first thing you buy for yourself?
A curr. A car damn it!

3. What is the first thing you buy for someone else?
A cellphone for Hanna.

4. Do you give any away? If yes, to whom?
Hmmm... Depends. Ang daming gold-diggers jan eh.

5. Do you invest any? If so, how?
Basta favorable yung conditions and I'll earn big! Haha!